So, I guess this is it?

Feeling really lousy now. Don't know whether I'm supposed to feel relieved, happy, sad or just numb. Keep asking myself if I knew what I had just done. God, is this where you are leading to? Last few months had been a lot of crying, laughing, praying and thinking....and finally this.

So, I guess this is it? Is this the end?...or it's just a start to another new phase?